is this real life?

For the second day in a row, and probably the 4th or 5th time in 3 weeks,  my 15 five year olds have reduced me to tears. 

After an hour and thirty minutes of pure defiance from 3/4 of my class, kids running clear across my room away from other students, away from me (even though i'm not chasing, I'm standing perfectly still), kids tackling others, hitting, crying, group timeouts, individual time outs, students leaving the classroom, neighbor teachers coming in, administration entering- talking, lights out...it did not end. 

I feel as though my class is Murphy's law, and everything that can- is going wrong, and everything that I could do wrong, I'm doing wrong. 

Who knows what is going on, but something needs to change. I have one week left with these kids... 

I severely hope that some kids have learned something over the past 3 weeks, but I'm not convinced. It drains me to think everything I've put in over the past 3 weeks has been in vain. 

I got a job secured today for the next 2 years. I'll be either in 1st grade bilingual, or 4th grade reading...it's still TBA. 

Donna, Tx here I come. 

The only thing that is getting me through this is the reason why I'm here.