end in sight? kinda.

I've been out of Texas for over just about 4 weeks now, and the end of my ridiculous summer training is in sight. 

This week was significantly better in terms of my emotions and my sanity, compared with last week. I think I can safely say last week was one of the hardest weeks of my life.

This week was still really hard in the classroom, but at least I had a better handle on the things I have control of outside of the classroom (my ability to plan, organize my time, relax, etc). 

I left school today, once again completely defeated. I still feel that I have no control of my classroom, my kids have a plan for me everyday, and I don't feel like my kids are learning. 

I'm trying to not take it as personally as I did last week, but when you care about something so much, and you're trying so hard, and you see yourself failing, it's hard not to take it to heart. 

I finally felt in a place after school today where I could put my TFA responsibilities aside and go enjoy a margarita for a few hours. Tomorrow I'm heading downtown to celebrate all afternoon and evening tomorrow at Pride Festival with friends and will take a much needed DAY off.

Sunday I'll be back at lesson planning and figuring out how to improve for next week. 

Ps..my fam did the lighthouse run last weekend...shout-out to family health and well being.