Put on hold

dinner with the padres...always interesting.

Tonight was swiss steak, green beans, french bread with a side of "let's rethink your summer/next schoolyear's plans katy." I found my self once again trying to organize my thoughts in the most clear cut, convincing way as possible...but all that was happening wasthat I was on my feet with a stream of words coming out of my mouth, explaining myself, defending myself, trying to make them see...afraid to stop speaking for the fear of them throwing disaproval and misunderstandings and lack of support back in my face.

I cringed when my mother said...you plan on working abroad?

ogod. at that moment i wasn't sure that anything i've explained or rexplained to them about what i'm doing at school or what i plan to do in the futre has stuck at all.

A rush of relief flooded over me when my dad knew what i was talking about and new what @ was- in some respect.

The room went silent when it was decided to have this conversation of "katy's spring break, summer, and fall plans and logistics" tomorrow evening after dinner.


I have some preparing to do tomorrow when they are at work. This will happen...they will see...